My Mini Marathon

People keep asking me what my new years resolution is.  I don't want to come across as pessimistic because my nature is that of an optimist, but I actually didn't make a resolution this year. That's a first for me.  I always make a resolution, even if its silly.  The winter after Andy I moved back from Chicago, I wanted to prove how tough the mid-west winters had made me, so I resolved not to wear anything but my raincoat that winter.  I think I made it to mid-February - longer than some of my resolutions :). 

Since it feels pessimistic for me not to resolve to change something this year, I decided on New Year's Eve, as I was reflecting on this upcoming year, that I would celebrate my new year on March 7, 2012.  I plan to make my resolution then, post-Herb.  Maybe we will even have a party and drink champagne.

As we get closer to the surgeries, my thoughts are jumbled and distracted.  My mind won't turn off and I feel like it's running a marathon.  I typically crawl out of bed after an hour to make tea and read.  Andy and I are getting prepared and feel all the wonderful support. 

I'm at peace with our decision, just ready to move beyond the unknowns attached to this.  The engineer in me has always been able to solve for the unknown and maybe this is one of the important lessons I will learn through this journey.  Unknowns don't have to be the scary place on the edge of the map.

Thanks again for all your support and comments.  It means so much to us.